The Multiple Journals:survivor of child abuse with MPD shares her story.

"This child can never be held enough."

A conversation inside:

child abuse, multiple personality disorder, dissociation

child abuse recovery, abuse survivor

This child can never be held enough.

This emptiness cannot be filled in this lifetime.
This loss will be with us til eternity.

We are our own mother.

We hold you and rock you, Children. We speak softly~ words of love and comfort.

What you did not get, we will try to give you now.

We will be for you what was never yours.
If we do not have it, we will find for you.
You will have what you need.~
needed then~need now.

We are willing. You will not be deprived this time.

All that you need, you will have.
All I can give to another, I give to you~ to myself~
to the child who hums~ who rocks herself to sleep.

J.C. 1/95